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04-24-2010, 08:32 AM
Chapter 5: Marital Disappointment
After the first year I just felt something (all of the above, actually) missing in our marriage. Since the “hints” and red wine were not really working, I started to buy Suzie the sexiest lingerie from Victoria’s Secret. She wore the lingerie and nighties regularly and OMG she looked so hot in them! But her basic attitude about sex (“nice and loving…but nothing naughty”) remained the same.
Having become a regular buyer at Victoria’s Secret, we started getting their catalogs about once a month. While Suzie was in the shower or out shopping, I would take sneak peeks at the catalogs, my eyes gazing with lust at the sexy models. Suzie had a sexy, beautiful, hot figure like the models, but something was different. I finally realized what it was. All of the models in the VS catalogs always had a very sexy pose, and the look on their pouty lil faces would just make me melt: The sexy “come hither” expression on the (albeit airbrushed) models was just not present when Suzie looked at me, even in the middle of passionate intercourse.
Chapter 6: Becoming a CD
After a few months of gazing lustily at the models, and having intense fantasies of (please do not take offense at my choice of words here, dear readers) wanting to f**k them, I started having fantasies of a different sort. I fantasized that I WAS one of the models, and had strong fantasies of wanting to be a sexy girl, or at the very least, wear some of those lovely sexy babydolls and panties in the Victoria’s Secret’s catalogs. Maybe this went back to my college days of feeling like (and acting like!) a girl.
I wanted Suzie to be a part of this mild lil role play, but she was so sexually conservative with me I was sure she would think my college experiences were more than curiosity and I really was “gay” if I approached her directly. So I dreamed up an idea where Suzie would think it was her idea to have me wear lingerie. We made a bet about something silly and stupid, where the “loser” had to wear the other’s underwear under their regular clothes for a week, and I made darn sure I “lost”! So for a week I wore Suzie’s lovely VS Second Skin satin panties, pink cotton bikini cut panties, and sexy lace-top thigh-high’s under my business suits. (I did have to wear dress socks as well, just in case someone at work spotted the cute lil thigh-highs at my ankles.)
Every night or late afternoon when I came home from work that week, Suzie genuinely looked forward anxiously to undressing me and loved seeing the firm bulge in my cute lil pink panties! She was never disappointed at seeing that bulge! That was a big change in our sex life. She started buying me my own panties after that week that the “bet” was over and insisted that I wear them every day. I certainly had no objections! That led to her buying me by own cute lil babydolls, camisoles and teddy’s to wear to bed each night. In her mind, this was all her idea, so she didn’t freak out at all. That is how I became a lingerie wearing crossdresser with the support of my lovely attractive wife.
While I enjoyed my lingerie crossdressing, and especially with the support of my wife, Suzie still didn’t really “loosen up” in bed (i.e. she still didn’t get into being “naughty” or “kinky.”) She just did not get into the sexy, lustful part of the dressing. To her, it was just me being sensitive and having stress relief. That was certainly true, but she had no idea just how feminine I felt (or so I thought.) I started feeling “apart” from her. Yes, I loved her very much, and I loved being oral with her, but this was never really reciprocated with the needy passionate feeling I felt when I went down on her. I learned to be very goodie with my mouth, lips, and tongue, licking and gently sucking her little clitty to the point of making her squirt warm cummies that I tenderly licked and swallowed as much as I could. Oh how I wished she would love the comfort and submissiveness of sucking as much as I did!
Chapter 7: Dealing with Unmet Needs
My sexual desires and unmet sexual needs started to increase tremendously. That is when I pretended to use my computer in my den upstairs at night “for work” with the door shut to explore the Internet. I did not explore porn sites like I did as college kid. I sought out CD and trannny chat rooms and had wonderful chats with people with needs just like mine. Soon I was even engaging in webcam shows and cam to cam chats while sitting in my sexy sissy lingerie.
About this time I started to regress like I had for that brief time in college. But this was much more intense. I really regressed. I went from having a lingerie fetish, to becoming a full blown lingerie/pantie CD, to feeling like a wonderful submissive sissy lil girl, to feeling the complete relaxation of babification. My brief college experience prepared me well. Feeling like a lil baby girl was soooooo stress reliving and comforting. It felt like a tremendous weight of work and marital stress had been lifted off my shoulders. The chats and web cam experiences were so erotic, hot and sensual. (As well as the thrill of being a naughty lil baby girl!) This was the one secret I kept from Suzie, but I just had to explore my sissy baby needs and satisfy them. The next natural step was to experience those needs in real life.
Chapter 8: The Real Deal
Getting aroused in cyberspace can get you only so far. So every now and then I would look at the Adult section on Craigslist looking for a possible encounter with a CD or Trannny escort. I finally found an attractive tranny escort in the list who visited nearby on occasion and after a few days of shy hesitation, gave her a call on my cell phone, leaving a message about my special needs. She called back the next day and said she was currently out of town but would be back in a week. We made a date at a local Holiday Inn, and I had a week to make up an excuse (probably an out of town business trip) to tell Suzie. I felt guilty about it, but convinced myself that my sexual needs to be babied were not being met, and meeting with a highly paid professional escort to meet those needs was not really “cheating.”
....to be continued
Chapter 9: Making a Date
My tranny escort, Ellie, called back and told me her out-of-town appointments would cause her to have to postpone our date for a few more weeks. I was disappointed and I began to grow a little suspicious, but Ellie assured me she had lots of experience with sissies who needed to be babied, and even gave me the password to her private Web Site so I could check her out more completely. I did so and spent a lot of time at night “working” in my den looking at her Web pages and corresponding with her.
After the first year I just felt something (all of the above, actually) missing in our marriage. Since the “hints” and red wine were not really working, I started to buy Suzie the sexiest lingerie from Victoria’s Secret. She wore the lingerie and nighties regularly and OMG she looked so hot in them! But her basic attitude about sex (“nice and loving…but nothing naughty”) remained the same.
Having become a regular buyer at Victoria’s Secret, we started getting their catalogs about once a month. While Suzie was in the shower or out shopping, I would take sneak peeks at the catalogs, my eyes gazing with lust at the sexy models. Suzie had a sexy, beautiful, hot figure like the models, but something was different. I finally realized what it was. All of the models in the VS catalogs always had a very sexy pose, and the look on their pouty lil faces would just make me melt: The sexy “come hither” expression on the (albeit airbrushed) models was just not present when Suzie looked at me, even in the middle of passionate intercourse.
Chapter 6: Becoming a CD
After a few months of gazing lustily at the models, and having intense fantasies of (please do not take offense at my choice of words here, dear readers) wanting to f**k them, I started having fantasies of a different sort. I fantasized that I WAS one of the models, and had strong fantasies of wanting to be a sexy girl, or at the very least, wear some of those lovely sexy babydolls and panties in the Victoria’s Secret’s catalogs. Maybe this went back to my college days of feeling like (and acting like!) a girl.
I wanted Suzie to be a part of this mild lil role play, but she was so sexually conservative with me I was sure she would think my college experiences were more than curiosity and I really was “gay” if I approached her directly. So I dreamed up an idea where Suzie would think it was her idea to have me wear lingerie. We made a bet about something silly and stupid, where the “loser” had to wear the other’s underwear under their regular clothes for a week, and I made darn sure I “lost”! So for a week I wore Suzie’s lovely VS Second Skin satin panties, pink cotton bikini cut panties, and sexy lace-top thigh-high’s under my business suits. (I did have to wear dress socks as well, just in case someone at work spotted the cute lil thigh-highs at my ankles.)
Every night or late afternoon when I came home from work that week, Suzie genuinely looked forward anxiously to undressing me and loved seeing the firm bulge in my cute lil pink panties! She was never disappointed at seeing that bulge! That was a big change in our sex life. She started buying me my own panties after that week that the “bet” was over and insisted that I wear them every day. I certainly had no objections! That led to her buying me by own cute lil babydolls, camisoles and teddy’s to wear to bed each night. In her mind, this was all her idea, so she didn’t freak out at all. That is how I became a lingerie wearing crossdresser with the support of my lovely attractive wife.
While I enjoyed my lingerie crossdressing, and especially with the support of my wife, Suzie still didn’t really “loosen up” in bed (i.e. she still didn’t get into being “naughty” or “kinky.”) She just did not get into the sexy, lustful part of the dressing. To her, it was just me being sensitive and having stress relief. That was certainly true, but she had no idea just how feminine I felt (or so I thought.) I started feeling “apart” from her. Yes, I loved her very much, and I loved being oral with her, but this was never really reciprocated with the needy passionate feeling I felt when I went down on her. I learned to be very goodie with my mouth, lips, and tongue, licking and gently sucking her little clitty to the point of making her squirt warm cummies that I tenderly licked and swallowed as much as I could. Oh how I wished she would love the comfort and submissiveness of sucking as much as I did!
Chapter 7: Dealing with Unmet Needs
My sexual desires and unmet sexual needs started to increase tremendously. That is when I pretended to use my computer in my den upstairs at night “for work” with the door shut to explore the Internet. I did not explore porn sites like I did as college kid. I sought out CD and trannny chat rooms and had wonderful chats with people with needs just like mine. Soon I was even engaging in webcam shows and cam to cam chats while sitting in my sexy sissy lingerie.
About this time I started to regress like I had for that brief time in college. But this was much more intense. I really regressed. I went from having a lingerie fetish, to becoming a full blown lingerie/pantie CD, to feeling like a wonderful submissive sissy lil girl, to feeling the complete relaxation of babification. My brief college experience prepared me well. Feeling like a lil baby girl was soooooo stress reliving and comforting. It felt like a tremendous weight of work and marital stress had been lifted off my shoulders. The chats and web cam experiences were so erotic, hot and sensual. (As well as the thrill of being a naughty lil baby girl!) This was the one secret I kept from Suzie, but I just had to explore my sissy baby needs and satisfy them. The next natural step was to experience those needs in real life.
Chapter 8: The Real Deal
Getting aroused in cyberspace can get you only so far. So every now and then I would look at the Adult section on Craigslist looking for a possible encounter with a CD or Trannny escort. I finally found an attractive tranny escort in the list who visited nearby on occasion and after a few days of shy hesitation, gave her a call on my cell phone, leaving a message about my special needs. She called back the next day and said she was currently out of town but would be back in a week. We made a date at a local Holiday Inn, and I had a week to make up an excuse (probably an out of town business trip) to tell Suzie. I felt guilty about it, but convinced myself that my sexual needs to be babied were not being met, and meeting with a highly paid professional escort to meet those needs was not really “cheating.”
....to be continued
Chapter 9: Making a Date
My tranny escort, Ellie, called back and told me her out-of-town appointments would cause her to have to postpone our date for a few more weeks. I was disappointed and I began to grow a little suspicious, but Ellie assured me she had lots of experience with sissies who needed to be babied, and even gave me the password to her private Web Site so I could check her out more completely. I did so and spent a lot of time at night “working” in my den looking at her Web pages and corresponding with her.